I hate my life

[shas19]

Hes done it again. Got angry started throwing things, screaming. I've just basically said goodbye to my two children because I just want to die. I'm currently walking the streets crying trying to remember what my kids smell like and all the little details of their faces

How are you op. He is truly horrible and abusive. Please dont be embarrassed to ask friends for help. the shame is his, not yours. x

I'm ok, thanks for asking!
He hasnt threatened to take the kids, more often just tells me to fuck off. No his family doesnt back him up at all, his mum was. saying last night how abusive and violent he is after he started slamming doors and shouting again. When we got into bed last night he was throwing a strop about something else and pretty much threw himself into bed and landed on my side, I said ouch that hurt and he ignored me and went to sleep. Woke up this morning and hes put my daughter in bed with me at 6am for reason I dont know other than to wake me up and text me asking if we should get a takeaway Friday? I've spoken to a friend about things and shes said I can go and stay if I need to

Please leave, take your children and get away from him

Firstly no man as a partner or parent should make you feel like your not worthy.
No shame in walking away if only for awhile that is called taking some steps to saying no to his shit behaviour.
seek some support and help.
Do not return to pretend it is ok it's a festering mess and your children need a mum.
His threats are nothing come to the realisation all and most families have shared care, right! (He will be put in his place in the legal system) Perhaps record his next meltdown on your phone to hear what he says.
He text you to carry on as if life's normal.
Have a look at the people on here telling you to reach out,
Don't normalise his behaviour!
Agencies exist for people and behaviour like this for this exact reason.
Please don't reply "I'm ok"
Stability and support are there if only you start to tell people.
Take care of you! Your children will love you for whatever you have to go thru to be a happy mum again.
Go to your friends and block him for now!