He wanted to stay friends. I've been there for him with his issues. I really needed someone last night and he just turned his back on me.
I feel so lonely. I've sent him lengthy texts and his responses are blunt and short. He can't be direct about it being over.
He was due to call this weekend after having time to think about how he wants to move forward and now that's all off because I can't leave things alone. I just wanted half an hour of his time to talk about some issues I'm having to try and calm my anxieties. I don't really have anyone else.
I've gone from feeling lonely to suicidal. I've got a whole weekend ahead with my 3yo DD and I just don't know how I'm going to get through it.
I've got no one else in RL. I go from blocking him and then end up unblocking him. I can't face deleting his number.
I know it's not right, I need to move on. The relationship was him being abusive to me and now I'm the abusive one.
I can't live with how horrible I am.