I’ve really had enough.
My entire 20s have been one massive joke after another. I’ve had many traumatic things happen, from still births to sexual assault by a stranger.
On the outside looking in I look happy, but I’m far from it. I’ve been fighting a loosing battle for a long time now. I thought I’d be happy moving near ILs but they seem to just see pound signs when they look at us. I haven’t seen my own family since summer last year, and doesn’t look like I’ll be seeing them for a few months still.
All I do is look after my DC constantly. I’ve had one break over night in 3 years. I’m just so tired of having bad shit happen to me, I’m a good person but feels like all the good things happen to those who treat others badly. I’m just at the point of giving up, I’m so unhappy in life and I have no idea how to get out of this rut. Every day has been the same for the last ten years, I have no friends, nobody. I don’t even remember the last time I was “me” and not “mum.” 
Anyone been in this situation and managed to change things and be happy finally? I’m dreading turning 30 and having the next 10 years of the exact same thing. feel like I wasn’t born to be happy. :(