I think he's coming to breakup with me.

[MaggyMaysBeenTakenAway]

DP.

Left Friday as I did something utterly stupid.
I've got MH problems and haven't been able to get my meds for 2 weeks. Lockdown is destroying me. Have become agoraphobic.

I got the wrong end of the stick reading something I wasn't suposed to and then did something really stupid and he was, rightly, livid.
I've ruined everything
Now he's coming back to talk and he's gonna go forever. I know it. I'm going to have to be a single mum

I'm so scared. Can I get a handhold please. I'm literally shaking

I'm not defending my behaviour. I went full SWF and instantly regretted it. I just saw red and lost it.
He wasn't here. It was Internet based. And I was wrong

What did you do? what is SWF?
It may not be as bad as you think OP?
You do sound very anxious and lockdown can be a nightmare for those with mental health struggles. Sorry you're feeling this way

Single White Female

It was bad. I couldn't blame him.

I'm just so scared

What did you do? Contact a female friend of his in a fit of rage?

His actions are out of your control. What can you do to get yourself well and healthy?

The first thing to worry about is your meds, as you can guarantee you can sort them out and it'll make you feel and act better.

Is there a friend or family member that could help you get them? Just thinking that they could then more easily do something today/tomorrow as it's a Sunday and Bank Holiday. Call 111 and they'll arrange for an emergency supply to be somewhere to be picked up. You could even try saying you can't get out in the hopes that they'll deliver then.

If not, call whatever pharmacy you usually use on Tuesday, and ask them to deliver as you can't get out.

If you need to call your GP to organize the meds then do so, or if you don't feel able to call then ask someone else to call.

No DP would let you run out of your meds BTW as they would want you to be well and if you'd run out and weren't able to get out of the house, they would fetch them for you. If there were any calls that needed making and you didn't feel able to, a true DP, if they'd been with you for any length of time, would make them for you.

You wouldn't be missing anything if you split up with this guy. He isn't even bothered about helping you to avoid being ill.

Sorry to hear that.
Tbh I think all you can do now is mentally prepare yourself for the worst case scenario but hope for the best.
Do you have any friends you could lean on right now?

If you're in the States or something then do whatever's your country's equivalent of the above, obviously. :)

If you're in the States and need Medicaid to apply for it. Again, a DP would've paid for a prescription if possible to tide you over.

*apply for it.

What did you actually do?

OP, can you arrange for your meds to be delivered to you regularly? Your partner only left on Friday and you haven't had the meds for TWO WEEKS so whatever the barrier is, you need help to access them and that should be between you and your surgery/pharmacy.

Can you get an out of hours number?

How’s the freckles?

PatsyJStone

Op seemed very happy go lucky on that thread. This one, not so much

MoMagic ... exactly. Seems that all may not be as it seems. Very quick recovery from the post an hour earlier.

PatsyJStone
My thoughts exactly

Anyone breaking up with you rather than helping you get your meds when you're clearly not yourself without them is incredibly selfish. You're not fully responsible for your actions at the moment and you could be in danger. He should be assisting you not adding to the drama and anxiety especially if a child is involved. Is there anyone else who can help you?

Is the child his?

How old are your kids? Are they his?

Have you been able to sort ointment your meds today?

Can you tell us what you did?

The reason I ask is that in the vast majority of posts where the OP says she has done somwing awful

It might not be as bad as you think, our perspective can often exaggerate things in times of high stress and when our mental health is struggling.

Even if it was bad, he may be understanding knowing you didn't have your meds.

If it comes to it and he does end things, come back here for support. You will get through this. We've all done thing's that weren't ideal. Hindsight is a wonderful thing.

Sorry posted accidentally

Can you tell us what you did?

The reason I ask is that in the vast majority of posts where the OP says she has done something awful and her DP reacted strongly it turns out that they didn’t do anything particularly bad and the ‘DP’ is using it as an excuse to behave terribly.

Advice will depend on the circumstances.

what did you read that you shouldnt have? What actually happened?

Sorry..but singe white female? What the fuck

What happened op?

I can't believe people are questioning me because I posted in style and beauty too. You think when people are going through shit they don't try TO DISTRACT THEMSELVES FROM OVERTHINKIBG IN ANYWAY POSSIBLE??

I've just gone upstairs and done a full face of makeup because that's what calms me down and it's a COPING MECHANISM THAT MY DOCTOR said I should use.

Find something that grounds you when you feel yourself slipping away

thisbplace is fucking horrible