Hi everyone, I’ve been finding it extremely difficult through the lockdown, because me and my partner have had to spend more time together and he is financially stressed he is taking it all out on me, his family and daughter can do no wrong and he’s so happy when he’s talking to them, with me he just can’t be bothered and he has been so nasty for 8 weeks now I feel like I can’t do anything right, today he had a go at me because the Hoover was unplugged so I said well you must not of plugged it back in because I haven’t touched it he then went on to say well you clearly have I wish you would just fuck of back to your mums I then took myself Of into the bedroom and have been here ever since and he dosent care, all he cares about is his family that he misses and I’m being taken for granted in all of this, I’m not a shit partner I cook his tea every night and i never ever be nasty to him like he is with me but I seem to get all the shit, I’m sick of feeling like a disappointment it was that bad this afternoon I even googled how to kill myself quickly without any pain.... I can’t do right for doing wrong.. I’ve been trying to set a new business up with nails as I haven’t worked in years due to mental health and loosing my son in 2018 and my grandad in 2019, I want to better myself for our future and so I told him about this new business idea yesterday and he was happy but today it’s just back to normal and I feel like the littlest person in the world right now , I even question will he even miss me if I did take my own life probably not I don’t know... I’m sorry for ranting I just needed a safe place to let it all out I feel so alone