Not sure where to start and I know people have much bigger problems but in the lockdown this issue is going around in my head morning, noon and night. I’m 36 and have been almost completely single for a few years now. Online dating makes me feel really uneasy and unsafe, plus I rarely to never feel attracted to anyone and really don’t want to force it. I dread seeing extended family and friends I haven’t seen for a while as they hassle me about it, some actually get really angry with me over it. I feel deep shame about my singleness and hate talking about it or being asked about it. I actually have never really minded being on my own but the pressure I feel because of my age and things people say is immense. I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to meet my soulmate, fall in love, have a wedding and a baby and I know I’m running out of time, but it has to be genuine love. I really have to feel strongly about someone. It’s nothing to do with wanting someone with no flaws and a high flying career, I couldn’t care less about that stuff and I’m sick of having that assumption thrown at me. I just have to be in love, that’s all, and I can’t make that happen by force. I don’t want to spend all my time in lockdown trawling OLD sites it really stresses me out. I don’t know what to do and I’m worrying about this all the time.