Hi all, I'm devastated, heartbroken, crushed beyond repair.
I got married in October 2018. I was so happy.
My husband had told me I had completed him and I was all he ever wanted and that he would mind and protect me until the day he dies. He was my first relationship.
Things was nice until boxing day 2018 that evening we go out end up having one drink to many. Anyway we got into a stupid argument that resulted in him punching me in my head then choking me to where my voice was hoarse the next day. I made him leave.
I told his mother she suffers with mental health and it resulted in her taking am overdose.
He blamed me then threatened to kill one of my family if she didnt make it.
Anyway we make it back up a few weeks later and he was saying all his sorrys. Me being gullible fell for it.
A couple months later we go for another drink with his mother and father when a guy and his girlfriend came over to me and his mom and was being friendly and hugged us on the way out.
When we get home he calls me a smell and tells me never let him see me hug another guy ever again well he was the first to ever have me so I went mad and put him out.
Fast forward a couple of months and i end up in hospital sick with my kidney and the night I was admitted I tryed to call him which he answered unknown and I could hear music in the background! Anyway he tell me a lie and says he didnt answer because he left his phone in the car. I argued and he said that his conversation was more important!!
He would mostly be out on the weekends but j thought hed give it a break knowing iwas in hospital.
Anyway couple months down the line I end up in hospital again he stays with me until he has to go.
I find out the next day hes went out all night and didnt return until 7 in the morning.
So I go mad and tell him to go but he didnt he just decides to ignore me while I'm in hospital and hes driving my car up and down with his mates doing whatever when my uncle tell him that it would suit him better to be with me than his friends. My uncle demanded my keys of the car of him.
I didnt even get a visit!! Next day no phone call nothing then I get told I can go home I had to get a taxi home he didnt even ask if or when I would be coming home!
Got home and him and his mat are stuffing there face with a pizza without a care in the world.
Any way next thing is he gets into an argument with my landlord and end up getting kicked out of my home where I was for 18 yrs.
We moved burning was starting to get very depressed. Then one night I get phone call to pick him up he was drunk. He gets into the car and I ask him is this the life that I'll have to continue to live with him I was shouting at him but he then grabs my hair while I'm driving from behind and I'm trying to control the car cause he has such a grip on my hair. He tryed to beat me that night but he was to drunk.
Anyway as it goes I forgived him. But i said to him the next day that if that was his mother or sister would he hit them then he got upset and said that I was mad.
A couple weeks go buy and he goes drinking again I come home and he rips my hair out throws it on top of me give me two running kicks into the ribs I got up and tryed to punch hill back but he got me on the floor and kept standing on my head and face and kept punching me in the head he kicked me so on in my knee I couldn't walk for two weeks he tore all the tendons and ligaments I really thought it was broke. I screamed in pain and begged to be taken to the hospital where when he told me he would stab me. My head had so much lumps and my face and eyes were black. He said sorry next day but said I should have just left him alone.
I didnt leave because ididnt want my family to.see my face. I healed then I left he begged me not to go but I did.
Then he gets into trouble and people come to my door my cousin to be exact and asked for his mothers address and i give it he then had a guy ring me to tell me he was gona blow me up.
He then asked me to meet him and that he was gona get help.
I thought ok stupid me I know but I did I kept meeting him and he was telling me that he would anything. So I had asked him if he had been with anyone since me being gone and only meeting with him and he told me no!
Any way I get his phone and I find pictures of a woman standing nude and it's only in the hotel we had our honeymoon. He has ripped my heart out and life apart I'm so depressed I've cried every day since he has effected me so badly.
I just think with the pain thays in my heart that I carry every day is never going to go away.
I dont see anywayford I know this sound so stupid but i loved him so much after everything thing he done. Whybor how is that even possible item to hate him. But I dont why? I just dont understand myself. I haven't gone back though. Words of wise and wisdom if anyone can reach out! Thank you.