We have been together for 2.5 years. We fall out a lot, usually over the same things. Were in our thirties but he still goes out with mates and ignores me whilst he does.
Ive started to feel really paranoid about it, and lately I end up upset and sending nasty texts when he ignores me or doesnt answer.
He works away and when he comes back, he doesnt keep plans with me and always lets me down somehow, apparently for his mates as I later find out.
Ive started to think that he must be cheating and have told him so.
Maybe im being unreasonable but I dont think so. We havent had sex i months because were always on a fall out and this upsets me to.
I usually end up turning off my phone and going into a depression. Then he says its my behaviour thats at fault and I turned my phone off as I am the one cheating. He has said some awful things saying Im sleeping with his mates, with anyone and he can tell when he has had sex with me. Called me a whore and stuff. I had called him a cheat but this seemed much worse. And its not the first time. When all I am doing is sitting home worrying and upset not wanting to talk to anyone because of how I feel. So then I do turn off my phone.
The other day after a text argument like this, I went to see him as he was calling saying he loved me etc, said it was me not answering the phone and he had tried to see me. When I got there he was all loving and kissing me asking if I wanted a "quickie". Obviously I didnt feel like it. He said Im too depressive and Im pushing him away, and even said he "offered" to have sex with me. I felt like walking out there but didnt.
This was yesterday and he went away down the country to work soon after, and I havent had a call or text since. I havent rang him but he knows how I feel surely.
I just feel tortured. And so confused, like he makes me feel it is me and I question my own feelings.
Please give me advice. I know I sound pathetic.