Right, I've posted on here a few times. Links below for some context about how miserable things are in my life right now.
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/3766610-Can-I-save-my-marriage
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/divorce_separation/3798323-How-did-you-know-it-was-time-to-end-it
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/3799417-Are-my-hormones-normal-My-husband-thinks-not
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/3809319-When-to-draw-the-line-How-do-I-set-firm-red-lines-for-him-and-me
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/3801414-Marriage-Counselling-experiences-good-or-bad
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/3812712-Next-steps-please-help-me-find-my-way
An argument we had a few weeks ago, where he called me a Narcissist and told me daughter would grow up hating me has been a catalyst. I did actually ask him to stay at his parents for a while. He returned all apologies and remorse, promising change, but of course this hasn't actually happened, and on Friday a disagreement because the most disastrous argument yet, and left me in an awful state. I am becoming increasingly concerned about his anger and erratic behaviour. I have tried dealing with the arguments calmly and this has no effect. I become concerned that the more upset and distraught I get, the more it spurs him on to greater lengths. As much as I have not been perfect, I have never gone out of my way to upset and hurt him, or in fact anyone. And he has freely admitted that is what he is doing. He mocks me when I cry and I'm upset. I actually think he despises me, and then when I don't want a kiss and cuddle when we have 'made up' he tells me I'm writing us off and refusing to make up, essentially making this all my fault.
As many have previously pointed out, leaving is the only course. I think I see that now. But I need to get my ducks in order. Please help!