What do I do?

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So I've been in this terrible relationship for nearly 3 years now!

I'm stuck and can't get out and don't no what to do!

We don't live together or anything but it's like I'm addicted to him or the drama! I really don't know but I'm not happy!

There's no trust, he's cheated on me, lies to me all the times and then goes for lunch with girls and lies to me about it even when I have proof!

But when I try to get out he goes all possessive....like I say I can't do it anymore I can't get over everything and then he promises me it will be fine everything will be fine.

So he doesn't leave me alone so I end up having to block him and then he turns up at my house. Sending me letters as I lock the door. Promising me if I unblock him he won't message me and so I unblock him he messages me and keeps on until I feel bad and end up meeting him again....the circle then repeats itself!

I just feel I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place....as much as I know we have no future and I can't forgive him....a part of me likes that he fights so hard to be with me so I'm not strong enough to get rid of him for good. I want to be friends I guess but there's too many feelings!

I guess I'm asking if anyone has been in similar and what can I do?

This is abusive behaviour on his part. He hounds you into seeing him again but treats you like sh1t when you’re together. This isn’t love and it’s not the basis for a friendship. I think you have grounds for a non-molestation order. If granted, this would oblige him to keep away from you for a certain period of time. It is an offence to breach a non-mol and he could get arrested for it. If you’re interested in going that route, contact the National Centre for Domestic Violence who will explain the process to you and may refer you to a law firm which can help you draft the necessary papers.

Also you might find ‘Women Who Love Too Much’ helpful.