I am a pathological liar and I need help. I've already fucked up so much

[failedatlife]

I lie about big things, small pointless things.
I can't stop

One lie has been found out and now I have no friends, DH is in the spare room probably wondering what the fuck he married.

I had a dissociative episode today and ended up In a hotel looking at all my tablets but I didn't take any, I've been hearing voices and I had a visual hallucination this morning. I ended up in A&E but they won't section me.

I can't stop crying, because I've fucked up so much and so badly. I don't know why I do it. I do have ptsd from a rape that happened when I was a teenager.

I don't think I can come back from this. I am the woman who lied so much that she fucked up her life.

I'll have no friends, no husband, and nowhere to live by the end of the week. And I don't blame them

Yes. I can't deal with life so I've not been doing the things that needed doing of the paid for things friends wanted. And then when it's come to give them the thing they expected obviously I hadn't done it so I had to pay someone else to do it, but instead of me telling them oh sorry I didn't have time to make / do x so I had y do it. I just said 'here you go' and I got found out

@FATEdestiny

And YOUR words sound like a person who has NPD.

What a truly unkind thing to say.

Shame on you.

Not that you will feel shame, however...

I think its distinctly unhelpful to call the husbands behaviour bad, since non of us know what its like. This could be the final straw. It's likely to impact him, since she isnt getting paid. Lied about why and didnt try and resolve the situation. No one would tell a woman leaving a man because of constant lies, they were probably to blame or it was poor behaviour on their part.

Minimising the ops behaviour isnt helpful. She deserves and needs help. But minimising of shifting blame to others, isnt ok.

OP has cone to the point that she knows the damage that's been done and ready to face getting help. That's what's important. What happens from now

So your not a lathogical liar. You're someone who's totally overwhelmed by life and wrongly ashamed to admit it previously.

You need the right MH support and medication. It'll make all the difference