I feel like this is the only place I can actually talk about this.
I've been with my partner for 10 years and this year he proposed. For the past two years I have been dealing with my mum passing away (she was really young and unexpected) and then my grandmother this year. So it's been tough.
He left his smart watch in the living room and something in my gut told me to look at the messages. That's where I saw 3 messages to 3 different escorts last friday when he was out drunk at his works night out. From what I can see from the messages he didn't do anything as the escort said he was too late (he was going bank to bank to get money as per the messages). He then came home and was all over me, which is also unusual because he very rarely can get going when hes been drinking.
I'm utterly heartbroken and feel totally betrayed. Weve been planning the wedding and have just paid to go through ivf next month 
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When I approached him he was apologetic but then got defensive that he never done anything and it was just texts...even though he went and got money and wouldve clearly went to sleep with her if he got the money in time.
What the hell do I do? He said I'm throwing away the years and our family for something he cant remember doing because he was so drunk. All I've ever wanted was a family with him and to be married....but I feel like my trust is completely gone as I just never expected him to do this to me :( x