So, we’ve been engaged around 18 months now.
I was literally the happiest I’ve ever been, but it only lasted a matter of weeks as I found out he’d been looking at an ex daily on Facebook. That’s a whole other cab of worms though, so please don’t focus on that.
The last 18 months have been a battle and a half, I’ve wanted to walk time after time.
My partner has become ungrateful, his two children are just as selfish and wrapped up in themselves.
I thought I loved my parter. I kept giving and giving, hoping it would change. I kept saying I wasn’t a doormat.
I want kids, he already had two. Again, a whole other can of worms. So please, no comments on that.
Despite all of this, I give it my all. I deal with the selfish ungrateful behaviour. I have regular little breakdowns where I just quit. I can’t hack it. I’m only human.
His ex is a living nightmare. An actual pathological liar. That’s a whole other case full of cans of worms.
However last night I found out my partner asked me to marry him literally 100 yards from where he asked his ex to marry him!!
I’m absolutely heart broken, totally devastated. After everything, I just feel like what little shred of happiness I had tucked away in my heart, he just basically took a big dump all over it.
He says I’m ridiculous, that I’m upset over nothing.
How could he do that though!? Our whole relationship I’ve wanted to be different. I didn’t want to be a carbon copy. Just another.
Am I ridiculous to be so upset? I feel so empty and lost.
Why couldn’t he have just made it special and specific to us? Why couldn’t he have thought about what things mean to me?
He could have proposed anywhere in the world, we travel six or seven times a year.... so why 100 yards, the next street over from where he asked her??