I have so many frustrations about my Mum but I haven’t got it in me to tell her about them, I love her too much and I don’t want to hurt her.
I don’t feel like she ever gives me any independence and is always telling me to do things and not to do things which if she gave me a chance, I’d be able to do them without being told, giving me a chance to prove myself. Like for example, wash your bowl up when you’ve finished, or make sure you lock the door before you go to bed. I have never not done any of those things when I’ve needed to so I don’t know what makes her think I won’t.
I’m 17 and have suffered with heartburn since I was about 11/12 but have never really done anything about it apart from taking antacids. Now that I seem to be having it more and more she seems to think it is down to the amount of alcohol I drink. I don’t drink at all from Sunday to Thursday and have heartburn a lot when I’m at college. I’ve tried to explain those reasons to her but she’s still convinced it is alcohol related, which it clearly isn’t. Everything bad that happens to me, like my broken arm, migraines, heartburn ect, she always assumes that it happens because I’ve done something wrong, like again too much alcohol. Accidents literally happen all the time and that’s just something you can’t avoid.
I just don’t know how much more of it I can take before I eventually snap. Do I just 5 months until I'm 18 to have the conversation with her or do I do it now (not literally now but you know what I mean)?