Is it me? Am I toxic?

[sallynoballs]

Okay so I'll try keep this short!

Basically I'm worrying I'm the toxic one and not my current bf....that I'm trying my hardest to get out of not as easy as it seems!

I'm not sure where to start or what information to give but I have read online that it might be me!

Before you all start...I know I have to get out I really am trying but basically I think it all comes from not trusting him....as I was never like this with my ex.

So my current bf cheated on me....a few times but now I find myself checking up on him, watching his every move, getting physically angry when I have been drinking and all the signs the internet have said that I might be a toxic one not him!
Or am I now like this because I don't trust him?

Please be kind I know I have to end it I really am trying but he won't take no for an answer!

Men like him enjoy conquests. Every time you break up with him and he gets you to go back to him, he gets the thrill of the chase and the conquest all over again.

He gets a kick out of having that much power over you - that he can make you do what he wants no matter how much of a bastard he is towards you.

People like him are never faithful. Finish with him, and mean it this time.

He's been having sex with a number of women, and you are one of them.
He's no doubt been giving the same lovey-dovey routine to all of you.

Think hard about that - how much do you want to be one of a group of women that he has sex with?

Right I'm going to grow a pair!

Just need to sort a few things so he can't get in my house etc

Then that's it...it's over!

I want to be my old happy self again

Fantastic, Sally!
You're worth far more than having that loser in your life.

Can you move closer to friends & family? He's gaslighting you and projecting. Do the online freedom programme if there isn't one close by. It's a real eye opener!