I'm at breaking point my life is shit and I have so many issues I feel like I'm drowning.
Main issue is 24yr old DD who is chaotic, manipulative and demanding and I honestly dislike her so much I wish I never had to see her or talk to her again.
DD is a single parent & she has 2 children. First child is a 5yr old little boy with Feotal Alcohol Syndrome who was removed from her care at 5 months old and he has lived with me ever since. Life caring for him is bloody hard work but I adore him and I'm happy to raise him.
DDs second child is a 12 month old LG who has remained in her care but she relies heavily on me to support her and I can't do it anymore. I love my GD but I can't cope with the chaos and drama that supporting her mum brings.
DD has just been on the phone again screaming at me to go and pick GD up as "she can't fucking cope" and needs a break. This happens regularly but no matter how often I look after GD it's not enough, or it's not for long enough or I haven't looked after her properly.
One time DD said I'd lost a dummy and she flipped, was raging for hours innudating me with phone calls demanding I find the dummy and take it to her immediately. I had to call the police in the end when she came to my house screaming and shouting and kicking the doors and punching windows, she even took my washing off the line and threw it around the back garden. Since last November I've had to call the police out five times because of her kicking off at my home.
DD is the same with the babys dad, sometimes turns up at his home screaming and shouting and leaving the baby on his doorstep. I have told Children's Services several time but nothing changes and I get more abuse off DD for "reporting her".
I recently gave up my career of 18 yrs as looking after my GS, supporting her and working was too much. This was a huge mistake DD expects me to be at her back and call even more and I feel so lonely and aimless without my career and colleagues.
My other children are sick of it all and get annoyed with me, telling me to cut her off but she has contact with my GS fortnightly which I am not allowed to stop. I also worry so much about my GD that I need to be involved to make sure she is ok.
My DH is permanently stressed and grumpy and stands up to DD less than I do as he's scared of upsetting her. We never go out and have fun together and I've asked him to move out but he's still here.
I am almost 50 yrs old and sick and tired of my life, feel like my whole life has been a series of mistakes and bad decisions to be honest. I just want peace and calm and little bit of fun now and again but have no idea how to achieve this right now.