Back story is that we were friends for years, since school but I always liked him more than friends.
He didn’t show any signs of being interested so I gave up and started a relationship with someone who I ended up accidentally having a dc with.
When dd was 3 months, her dad walked out on us. My friend was amazing and helped out so much during a really hard time.
I finally confessed my feelings and although at first he was surprised and unsure about getting together, we started dating and fell in love.
Things were amazing for about six months before he was offered a job 100 miles away. We tried to make it work long distance but with dd so young at the time I was exhausted and was probably a lot snappier and grumpy with him when we did see each other every other weekend or so.
It was a really stressful time and then he decided to end things after living away for a few months but deep down I knew he’d be back because it wasn’t over between us.
A few months later he came back and wanted to try again. So we did the long distance thing but I wanted more so I suggested I move with him. He said he’d think about it and I felt certain that it was going to work.
Then I didn’t hear from him for a couple of weeks. I thought he probably needed a bit of time to think about our future plans so I left him alone. Then a week later he called me to say that he’d met someone else.
I was really gutted. But I said I understood and that maybe it was good for us both to date other people to find out what we really want.
I fully expected him to come back after he realised that this other girl was just a distraction and rebound. I still feel so strongly that it’s not over between us. I love him so much and I know he feels it too.
I’m starting to get scared though because the more time passes it feels less likely that he’s coming back. It’s been over a year now since we last spoke and I want to ring him but am scared he really has moved on. What shall I do?