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Don't know if I'm overreacting?

59 replies

Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 10:14

Hi everyone so I'm so nervous just writing this i have a bf who i love so much but I'm not sure if I'm over thinking this or what but recently he's been pressuring me for anal sex which i find so painful he begs and says please and he just keeps asking asking it was the time of the month for me again he asks and asks i give in but really in my head i didn't want to do it just wanted to please him sorry to go into detail but it begins and it was so painful it was taking my breath away i wanted him to go gentle but he said he was bored waiting i felt the tears in my eyes from the pain i just turned my head and hoped he'd finished soon he actually asked if i was enjoying it.... after i was bleeding a little i just feel like i was pressured into it it all feels a bit surreal to me i don't know what to think

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Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 11:23

@category12 yeah i showed him the blood straight after and he was like it will be ok just relax i know he doesn't give a toss about me its very difficult to get my head around that cus sadly i love him

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Moralitym1n1 · 05/06/2019 11:24

Having your period isn't an excuse/justification for painal, sorry anal, sex.

Let's list all the other things you could do;
You could wank him
He could wank himself, with or without your help.
You could give him oral sex (if you wanted to, if course).
You could have normal sex anyway, like lots of couples do. Lots of men dont care.
You could just not have sex.

You dont exist to provide an available hole for him to f*ck all the time. That's not your role or responsibility.

Tbh I think he sounds like a wrong in.

Moralitym1n1 · 05/06/2019 11:25

*wrong un

Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 11:27

@CharlotteCollinsneeLucas thank u for your wise words i just need a wake up call i guess and some courage

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MrsAJ27 · 05/06/2019 11:27

You are definitely not over reacting...personally I would get rid of him. Sex is about you not just him.

Moralitym1n1 · 05/06/2019 11:27

Sad op. Thing is decent relationships are based on them living you as well as you loving them.

You can find that.

He either doesn't or his "love" is so selfish, inconsiderate and shitty, it's not worth having.

Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 11:32

@Catapultaway hi when he asked that i couldn't answer him cause of the pain he knew how much i didnt like it i wasn't going to warm up to it

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MaiaRindell · 05/06/2019 11:37

You deserve better than this, OP.

Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 11:39

@Moralitym1n1 thank you so much for your kind words your right he certainly doesn't care i will have to have a serious think about everything after reading everyone's messages here

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category12 · 05/06/2019 11:46

If he'd been mortified and remorseful about hurting you and making you bleed, then there would be something to work with here. But he just doesn't care. You need to give him the heave-ho.

pudding21 · 05/06/2019 11:47

lostgirl never allow yourself to be pressured into anything, he clearly hasn't got a clue about women and is only happy to please himself, despite that causing you pain. If the roles were reversed would you ever want to inflict pain on someone for your own benefit? No. So neither should he.

Some couples enjoy anal, but only when it is mutually consented to. Him trying to shove his dick in your ass when you are not relaxed or wanting too, not prepared etc shows what an incompetent lover he is. No woman, even women who have anal regularly will enjoy it if the man just shoves it in.

You deserve better, you said you didn't want to and he pressured you and didn't give a fuck you were hurt.

InsertFunnyUsername · 05/06/2019 11:52

How horrible of him, ask yourself what kind of partner would beg and plead for you to do something that he knows is going to be painful, then when you are bleeding says dont worry you'll be ok. Not one i would want. You deserve better than this OP. You said yourself he doesn't care about your feelings so stop giving a shit about his and tell him to fuck off.

Moralitym1n1 · 05/06/2019 11:54

Some couples enjoy anal, but only when it is mutually consented to.

We're all different but I often do wonder if any woman truly enjoys anal (or if their 'enjoyment' is about submission/their partner's enjoyment/the novelty etc.).

hellsbellsmelons · 05/06/2019 11:57

This is sexual coercion and it's awful abuse.
Please get away from this vile man.
He doesn't give a shit about you or your pain or your feelings.
That will never change.
Never give in and never agree to this again.
You need to be strong and you need to tell him in no uncertain terms that if he tries it again that you will be reporting him for rape.
He's a disgusting human being.
Please raise your bar and don't be with another man like this ever again.
If you need some support please contact Womens Aid.
It would be very useful for you to do their Freedom Programme.

category12 · 05/06/2019 11:58

Morality, some women claim to have anal orgasms. I mainly have personal incredulity as an argument against it.

CodenameVillanelle · 05/06/2019 12:00

I'm sure you don't want to think about it in these terms but what he did was rape. You didn't consent so he harassed you until you 'consented' to make him stop harassing you. That's coercion and it's not true consent. Then he failed to listen to you when you said it hurt and caused you injury.
He's not a good man, he's a rapist.

Whatisthisfuckery · 05/06/2019 12:10

Fucking hell OP poor you. No wonder you’re feeling violated. he sounds vile. all these men expecting their partner’s to bend over so they can steam hammer them up the arse make me want to puke. I know a lot of gay men, and they will tell you that you can’t pound away because it’s painful and potentially dangerous, and they have prostates, so the potential for pleasure from it.

OP your body is yours. You do not have to allow any man to stick his dick, or his hands or any other part of him in or on any part of your body if you don’t want to. No is a full sentence, not the beginning of a negotiation. Likewise a yes to start with can become a no whenever and for whatever reason, and you don’t owe anybody any justification.

Your BF is a sexually abusive twat. I’d tell him to go get a blow up if a fuck doll is what he wants, then dump the bastard.

EGate · 05/06/2019 12:28

This is not good and his behaviour is not acceptable. You are not overthinking it. Your gut is telling you this is wrong.

I am going to say some direct things here.

One of the most concerning things here is lack of consent. Pressuring someone into sexual activity is not consent, someone changing their mind and the other person carrying on is not consent. Someone experiencing pain and discomfort and wanting to stop is the withdrawal of consent.

Another is disrespect and disregard for your consent, opinion, agreement, want….. you said no, so he asks again because what you said wasn’t good enough for him, you say no. He is probably getting annoyed, he ideally doesn’t want to take you by force but he wants to use your body to satisfy his own desires, so he asks again and again. How many times do you think he would ask if you kept saying no? How many nos would it take for it to be violent rape?

Or if this carries on with the pressurisation or if you decide to just let him have you how he wants what kind of horrible disgusting relationship would that be? You would find yourself in a deep dark hole and struggle to be free. When you think about your future – do you picture this, does this make you happy, does this make you smile and giddy with the thought of an exciting future? – I bet not.

Couples have anal sex, couples do bondage, couples do domination and submission, couples do sadism. However, I am pretty sure the healthy relationships, fulfilling and loving relationships are when two people CONSENT, not pressured and BOUNDARIES are RESPECTED.

I question;
Do you walk on eggshells to avoid disappointing your partner?
Does he ever say your perception on present or past events is wrong?
Does he like to know where you are and with who?
Does he ever say mean things in a jokey way? Does he ever put you down?
How frequently do you apologise to him?
Is he sometimes loving then sometimes distant?
Do you genuinely desire him sexually – for your own desires not to please him or because you should?

I imagine your comfortable, your settled, you know what to expect from him - for now, you may not want to be single, this may be easy, you may feel that you can’t find anyone else because of the things he’s made you believe.

Think about what you want your life and future to look like. Is it this? Is it accepting poor behaviour? Is it ignoring the bad behaviour? Is it putting up with his behaviour to have someone? Is it having weekly or more anal sex sessions where you stop crying because your numb? Or is it laughing, making plans with your partner, going to the park or playing with your children together? Is it having exciting passionate romantic sex where you’re just as satisfied with him and desire him looking forward to each time you MAKE LOVE?

Be kind to yourself. You get one life to live on this world. Many have theirs taken away from them. You have the chance to be happy and do the things you want to do within whatever means you can.
You do not want to be an old lady at the end of your days reflecting on what he makes you put up with.

Get out.

Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 12:38

@Whatisthisfuckery hi thank you so much for your message he knows I've been through some bad things in my past so i cant understand why he would treat me like that but you are right cause i did say no the first time just i wanted his nagging to stop i didn't realise how bad it all was until i came home and thought about it all now reading everyone's replies i know it was all very wrong

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CharlotteCollinsneeLucas · 05/06/2019 12:53

Do you have people in your life who care about you, OP? Real friends, supportive family?

If so, gather all the support you can and get this pathetic excuse for a man out of your life. ASAP.

And if you sadly don't, get in touch with WA and let them support you till you're in a better place (a million miles from him).

Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 12:59

@EGate hi your message has shocked me cause EVERYTHING you had said rings alarm bells in my head to all your questions i dont like to disappoint him cause he seems to get angry with me he does ask what I'm doing and who im with but i actually thought that was him genuinely caring... he says pretty mean things to the point I've burst out crying and he will say only babies cry then he will act overly nice i dont know if this sounds silly but i feel like i have to look good for him all the time? Otherwise he will say i look bad today then suddenly he says I'm joking but to all your questions the answer is yes. Sometimes he jokes about making himself more better looking (gym and stuff) and he will be like more girls will look at me now and want me and that kills me inside i dont have the balls i guess to stand up to him because when i try he just says huni I'm joking i love you and i feel bad for reacting

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Lostgirl90 · 05/06/2019 13:01

@CharlotteCollinsneeLucas i dont have alot of family or friends sadly losted my mum few years ago.. and new to the area now i have no friends i will somehow have to find the courage thats all i can do i know his treatment to me is very wrong and I'm stupid for staying

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DesperadoDan · 05/06/2019 13:08

He behaves and says the same things as my vile ex, he will never change and will break you until you become a shell of a woman.
Please end this relationship before this happens, my ex broke me, I’m still mending. Don’t be like me.

Doesitevenmatternow · 05/06/2019 13:19

This makes me so sad. He is a bad dangerous man. Sex should be about mutual enjoyment. He does not care about you. You are not safe with him.

Please leave him.

QueenOfTheCroneAge · 05/06/2019 13:23

You are not just a couple of holes for him to wank into. He doesn't like blood but was happy to CAUSE you to bleed. Despicable.

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