Iv been disabled for around 6 years and gradually getting worse think similar to MS life limiting illness but I cop well.
My dh the last few years has gotten miserable irritable and angry with me.
He gets in these moods where he rants at me so much I end up crying and frustrated. He backs me into a corner with his arguments. It happens every couple of weeks and he's just horrible.
I'm ashamed to say that I get so frustrated I end up hurting myself.
We've been seeing a councilor but it hasn't gotten much better now all of my feelings for him have gone as I feel it's gone to far.
He's got a lot of issues from his childhood and says he loves me and can't live without me etc but surely if you loved someone you wouldn't treat them like this.
Iv been honest and told him now how I feel and that my feelings have changed but I can't leave as I haven't got anywhere to go and neither has he.
Iv told him I just need to be left alone for now and with the councillors help we've agreed some boundaries.
Tonight he's started crying and says iv changed towards him and he can't lose me etc. He's insinuated suicide and I feel so guilty but angry. The crying just doesn't seem real to me. I'm not really sure what I'm asking you all but where do I go from here?
Oh and he's a functioning alcoholic too and has been for years. I'm not even sure how much he drinks.
To top it all off I mentioned this to my health care team and they've referred me to safeguarding so I'm really worried about that.