WWYD? Friend trying to get me to admit feelings for him

[TTSS]

I have a very dear friend who means a great deal to me. I’m very very attracted to him and I think he likes me too but I’m not 100% sure. I slipped up recently and said a couple of things that have got him suspicious and now he’s digging deeper and deeper and he’s told me that he won’t give up until he gets to the bottom of it.

The problem is that he’s the kind of person who is likely to go NC if this is a one sided thing. I really like him but I’m so scared of losing his friendship. He’s my best friend.

WWYD? Should I just keep dodging the question? He’s not going to give up.

All sounds like very hard work and overly dramatic to me.

He wants to hurt you to boost his confidence imo. Dump him. This is not a friend.

@TTSS, OP I could have wrote this post myself. Will read and comment properly tomorrow when I've had some sleep but feel free to PM me if you want to talk.

@EmptyChairsEmptyTables Good question, no because I still think they had both put me on a pedestal - they'd heard my side of relationship problems, seen me when I was fun and were were out and about, helping me when I was depressed and they played rescuer... but never did the normal day do day reality stuff in between. I'm sure in real real life neither side would've been happy.

Horrible of me but the older I get (I'm on 32 now) the more often I wonder if I've been stupid as both would have taken care of me emotionally and financially. But would they? Or would I have fallen off my pedestal and then be just another girl to them.

To be honest I couldn't get over this weird feeling of violation, like I used to get dressed in front of them if we were going out, trying on tops etc and now it all feels icky if they were looking at me differently. I'm very easy to talk to about emotions and very understanding so I'm Cross they didn't say anything until 5+ years into a friendship both times.

How about if you turn it all around and ask him directly "how do you feel about me?". Or you could do it in a lighter way, for example: "if you had to describe me in 3 words, what would they be? Describe how you feel about me in 3 words" etc.