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Abusive ex has new girlfriend and I'm devastated

35 replies

Curlysue2019 · 28/04/2019 11:43

I know I'm wrong, I know I shouldnt care but I do. Imy heartbroken. I heard through a mutual friend that he had found someone new after less than a month from us breaking up.

I instigated the breakup -I left him previously due to his treatment of me but went back. The most recent breakup before Christmas was due to his behaviour towards my DC - shouting snapping - aggressive behaviour. That was last December - had minimal contact and none since February when he returned my items from his home.

I now know he was seeing someone else - my head is all over her place - I'm crying and feel so low. I know I'm stupid I just feel awful. I just want to admit it out loud.

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alwaysinleggings · 28/04/2019 11:54

I hope you feel better for admitting this, you are probably in 'mourning' for your toxic relationship. You are really better off without someone like this, and you WILL find someone who will treat you as you deserve to be treated. Smile

Curlysue2019 · 28/04/2019 12:02

Thank you for responding - Im going over and over everything in my head - I honestly tried so hard to make that relationship successful. And after everything he replaced me so easily. I can't conceive of dating anyone yet - my heart was still with him - still is if I'm honest. I'm in incredible pain and it's worse because I still love him even though he was so abusive to me 😢

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justwondering2019 · 28/04/2019 12:09

It's so hard to let go of someone even when you know they weren't right for you! You need to focus on yourself and not his new relationship, it's so hard as I've been in a similar situation although he wasn't abusive he did drugs regularly and wasn't the person I fell in love with when he was on them. You tend to think back to the good memories and not the bad ones. I still think about him because he was a big part of my life for a long time but you have to remember that everything happens for a reason and you will move on and you will be happy again!

Curlysue2019 · 28/04/2019 12:15

I know intellectually that his behaviour was wrong and I was right to leave - it's just making my heart accept it. I feel so destroyed that he could move on the way he did - I meant nothing

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RLEOM · 28/04/2019 13:18

You will get through it, I promise. If he's abusive then you're well rid. Once the pain dies down, you'll realise you can do so much better - you deserve better for you and DC. Flowers

Moralitym1n1 · 28/04/2019 13:21

The speed with which he moved on is just more evidence that he's not well-adjusted .. fucked up, if you want it out more bluntly.

It just goes to show he staggers from one fuck up to another.

If probably won't last but even if it does, just feel sorry for her and feel happy and relieved for yourself and your kids.

Scarlettmaid · 28/04/2019 13:34

It feels like you are the unhappy one whilst he has moved on. Make no mistake. Out of the three you are the one in the best position. Yes it hurts and it is only natural, you invested a lot in that relationship. And it sucks to feel like you have been replaced. That man is a mess and bad news. You are the strong one, the one who ended it in spite of your feelings, the one who put your children first. Celebrate your strength and your new freedom. With time you will feel better. I feel sorry for the new girlfriend, hopefully she will dump him soon. There is no chance she will be happy with him.

BeenThereDone · 28/04/2019 13:41

Soon enough he will have her feeling the way you felt and you will feel nothing but sympathy as for her... She has all his control and bullying to look forward to.

He has moved in quick because he can't be on his own.... Never a good thing.

Curlysue2019 · 28/04/2019 14:22

Thanks so much for all your replies - I'm physically sick with upset. I feel so angry with myself as I can only seem to remember the good version of him today - I'm writing down all the bad stuff to read over - my first instinct was to call him tell him how hurt i was - i didn't thankfully - was close though.

I feel like he has been laughing at me - like I had no value but I kept pathetically trying to make things work.

The pain is a living thing in me 😢

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Treacletoots · 28/04/2019 15:38

If you can control your mind, your heart will soon catch up.

Actively repeat to yourself he was abusive, you do not want that and you will feel better tomorrow. Maybe only a little but each day if you keep with the positive mantra it will improve.

Do things you enjoy and make you happy, get those endorphins pumping, just a walk, a bike ride whatever.

Focus on you, what makes you happy and that you will only feel better if you try to help yourself. It does work.

BumbleBeee69 · 28/04/2019 15:38

You do know his behaviour will not change, just because he is with someone else, given time he will treat her exactly the same as he treated you OP Flowers

janeybumtum · 28/04/2019 15:43

It's very normal to feel like this, it's no reflection on you or silly of you in any way. Of course he had a "nice" side - these types always do or it wouldn't be possible for them to win anyone over in the first place to get away with the way they behave a bit later. He's probably in the midst of doing a number on this poor girl and before long she will be being abused and her head will be all over the place with confusion over whether to leave like how you were. Don't look at it like he's "moved on," these people need to find someone quick because they "need" to have a person to take advantage of and abuse, that's how they live their lives. Don't fall into the trap of thinking maybe this relationship will be fine because he'll be different with her...pigs are more likely to fly than men like this to change

Curlysue2019 · 28/04/2019 16:25

I just want to be able to switch my mind off from it - it's like a broken record. He was single for a fair while before he met me - I never felt as safe with anyone as I did the first 3 months with him - then it changed- at one stage I remember asking him if he hated me - or did he just dislike me.

He accused me of wanting to be everyone's friend of being too soft, of not having enough confidence - small things I did irritated him , falling asleep on the couch for instance. I don't understand what anyone would get out of treating some one that way.

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Curlysue2019 · 29/04/2019 12:18

Today is so hard - I keep wanting to call him to ask him how he could do this -replace me - was it all lies? - am I really that stupid? 😢

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Stiffasaboard · 29/04/2019 12:22

I want to give your head a wobble- he was abusive to your DCs

Your DCs
Absuive
To the DCs

Is that enough to make you see that he’s an idiot? He is emotionally warped and that is why he moves on.
Hold your head high
You did the right thing and you do not want him in your life

You want to be wanted and loved
It doesn’t need to be him

NameChangeNugget · 29/04/2019 12:27

Today is so hard - I keep wanting to call him to ask him how he could do this -replace me - was it all lies?

Please don’t do this. He was abusive and really won’t care.

You’re doing great OP, his actions show how little he cared for you. You deserve more

Curlysue2019 · 29/04/2019 12:28

I left him for my dCS sake so I know I'm better off - it just hurts that I meant so little. I put in so much work there. I feel used and stupid

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OldUnit · 29/04/2019 12:49

This won't last. Then He'll replace her easily too.

Happynow001 · 29/04/2019 12:50

Sometimes OP, knowing that you've done the right thing doesn't help. But you HAVE done the right thing: for yourself and even more importantly, for your children.

You should congratulate yourself for the strength and self-respect to leave that toxic relationship. Think what would have happened if you'd ignored his behaviour and moved in with him (I've assumed you have your own homes as you said "he returned my items from his home. ".

What if you'd had a mortgage and pooled finances with him? Given years of your life - and those of your children with him? Had a baby with him?

How do you feel now?

As another PP has said, your heart will catch up with your brain. In the meantime cleanse his physical and digital presence from your lives and remove him from your social media and block/delete him from your phone and email.

When you do wobble and want to call him look at your children and remember how it really was.

Things will get better OP: just give yourself the time. 🌹

Curlysue2019 · 29/04/2019 12:59

Thanks for responding all. - I have gotten rid of all reminders of him. And any social media connections etc as well. I would have loved a future baby etc with him. Glad I don't now as it would have been so hard.

I just want it to be 6 months from now.

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FuriousVexation · 29/04/2019 13:09

You will get there OP. You need to put the time in, but you will be well over it and SO much better off

Curlysue2019 · 29/04/2019 17:43

I know it's a process - it's just horrible - real empty feeling

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Curlysue2019 · 01/05/2019 18:50

When will I start to feel ok? - I'm breathless with pain. It actually feels worse than when I split with my partner of 8+ years. I can't sleep or eat and I'm so angry with myself. 😢😢😢

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CloudsCloudsClouds · 01/05/2019 19:42

I’ve been there and felt just like you do Flowers and survived.

The physical pain and breathlessness will stop soon, I promise. For me, the worst of it lasted about a week. It was like having a panic attack 24/7. It felt like there was an elephant on my chest.

Six months from now you will look back on this and all the emotion will be replaced with clarity and perspective.

For now, go back to basics and focus on getting through each 10 minute period at a time. Concentrate on your breathing. Put on a meditation podcast. 20 minute meditation exercises got me through the worst, even if I had to play them back to back. Look up Tara Brach. Her voice is very soothing and her podcasts helped me tremendously.

If you can’t eat, make sure you’re drinking enough. Try a smoothie or a cup of hot chocolate. Grab a bag of crisps and eat just one. See how you feel, then try eating another.

Be your own carer. Imagine yourself as a child in distress, not an adult. Soothe that child, give her the love and care she deserves.

This is just a wave in a vast ocean. Go with it. Don’t try to fight the feelings but accept them. Cry if you need to. You’re allowed to feel pain, and how you’re feeling is understandable. You’re in shock.

As for your ex, he hasn’t moved on. He just isn’t able to be alone because he’s empty and needs someone to fill the void. He’s empty so needs to dominate people. I know your imagination must be running wild, but in truth the reality is likely to be extremely dull and he will almost certainly go on to abuse this other woman, repeating the same patterns. You, however, had the courage to leave and you should be incredibly proud of yourself.

Ask yourself why this has hurt you more than the end of your 8+ year relationship. I think there’s something in that.

Hang in there. I thought I would die from the pain but here I am, happier than I ever was when I was with my own abusive ex. I’d give you a hug if I could. Smile

falaff · 01/05/2019 20:39

Hey, just to say I know how you feel and outr stories are very similar. I was with my abusive ex for 9 months and the breakup was the worst even though I instigated it due to his behaviour.

I thought he was going to get therapy and 'fix himself'. What he actually did was replace me 3 weeks later, despite telling me how much he loved me and couldn't bear the thought of me being with someone else. I found out a couple of days ago that he's in Italy now meeting her parents. We did a summer road trip to the same places and it really hurts.

Just remember that he's not the person you want him to be. Otherwise you'd still be together. Try and remember how you felt those weeks before leaving; probably sick with anxiety over his behaviour, miserable, feeling like you can't be yourself, desperate for him to change.

I left in Oct and the months following were almost unbareable. When he told me he found someone else and told me the story of how them met I felt practically suicidal. It's normal. People like this take so much energy and emotion that they leave a hole.

I can honestly say that I feel so much better now. I was consumed with thoughts of him for months. Now I don't think of him every day. I feel sorry for him. I'm happy to be myself again. Try and hang onto these thoughts.

It does get better, honestly. I think what helped me was accepting and allowing myself to feel shit and not hiding or fighting it. You're not weird or wrong to feel bad, and it WILL pass. Hugs.