Hi, have been searching the net for a place I could ask for advice. I have been in a long distance relationship for 5 years and it's great, the distance is annoying but it works and we make it work because we both love each other a lot. Up until recently, he always insisted on condoms, even if I went on the pill, saying it will get to the stage (I pref without) but until he's ready/comfortable to (he has always been very concerned about pregnancy, always telling me there is still chances with the pill and it's good for double protection) anyway, I feel this is relevant as this leads on to his "fuming" attitude. I'd say after 6 months of frequently visiting each other, he agreed to drop the condoms and I would be on the pill. Anyway, I was not feeling very well and had to go to A&E, where I had a pregnancy test and I am 6 weeks pregnant. I have genuinely been taking the pill but when I told him he automatically goes mad and starts shouting say it's obvious I had planned this because I "always pressure him to not use a condom" which isn't true, I have just expressed a preference. However, he thinks it all adds up and is odd, does it really look that odd? I was crying and he knew I obviously surely didn't want a baby right now or plan this. I would never do that anyway so now I'm really hurt that he doesn't trust me when trust has been the best between us but he thinks I am not being honest. He says he'd never tell me to not have the baby but he's mortified he can't be a proper dad for him/her and doesn't think it's fair on the baby, which is making me feel dreadful. The fact I have expressed desire to keep it makes him "even more suspicious". He has calmed down but I know he still thinks this was all a huge plan of mine which really upsets me. He lives in another European country (I'm in England) and neither of us can move right now, it really just isn't possible. His father is really sick and he is having to care for him and I don't know his countries language and I have a secure job and home here and if I'm pregnant it just isn't possible and I won't lie, I don't want to move countries, although of course I would like to be near him but when I don't know the language I think it would be impossible. I don't know what to do and I'm honestly really upset and scared.