All of these things over the course of a conversation:
That he loves the attention of women ( I knew this)
It fills a hole inside him.
He is ok with keeping them a secret from me.
He finds it easy to lie.
When questioned, then he would prefer to be on his own, ( he has often pushed me away for months at a time.)
I knew all this, but thought I was going nuts- because everything was always my fault.
He is full of self hatred...we had conversations/ arguments about these things before, but it was shocking to hear it all at once.
This does follow on from my other thread, but I couldn't find it.
To recap... he had previously lied a lot. We tried working on it, there was little to no affection/sex, I questioned it, and he has now pushed me away.
And now that...
I'm not sure what point I'm trying to make!