Sorry

[JustTheWayItIs4Me]

I'm so tired, just so tired of it all. I love my baby I love him so much, but I don't know how much longer I can put up with all the bull shit and mind fuck.

To the world my dress sense says I'm intelligent and confident, underneath those are a trail of marks which say different. One on my arm, another to match the other arm, trail on my thigh, bums a new place, missed the face this time but got the head, hair will cover that.

I'm a slag, a bitch, a cunt, fat, idiot,my mother is a bitch, no wonder I'm the same. I just opened my legs.

I think I'm going insane I doubt and question my own ability. I want my baby to have what I never. I'm so tired of being made to feel like shit, being treated like shit, have all my confidence chipped away little by little. Every few days argument then fight, fresh new bruises before the old ones are even healed. Sick of having to wear long sleeves and not being able to take cardi off.

I'm tired, I'm just so tired. It doesn't even hurt any more. My heart just aches. I'm sorry for not being good enough. I'm sorry for not being a good mother im sorry

You. Are. Being. Abused.

Please call the police and women's aid! Save yourself and your baby.
You are worthy of an amazing life but it won't be with him.

Get your baby and yourself to a place of safety. Call Women's Aid. If you're in Wales call Live Fear Free Helpline.

Please please get help. He may harm you further or even your baby. Leaving will be the best thing you’ve ever done and NONE of this is your fault!!

Please, please call the police. You and your baby can be safe and happy but you must call the police

Evening, OP. We're so sorry to hear you're going through this.

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Very best wishes from all at MNHQ.

All your son needs is you, safe.

Please reach out, call women’s aid or the police. Do you have anyone in real life who you can lean on for support?

Please don’t doubt your ability. You are being abused. You are not worthless, you are loved. Please get help x

Run away as fast a you can and take your baby with you. Go to council in morning and tell them you're being abused and you're scared. You deserve a better life than the one you have right now x

You have nothing to be sorry for. I am sure you have been made to feel useless and like it is all your fault but it isn't. Absolutely not.

If you have someone in real life you can turn to, take your baby and go there. Take off your cardigan. Ask for help.

I am sure that the fear of the unknown is horrible, I am sure you will have fears as to how you will manage financially and emotionally, where you will live, but these fears are surely better and more welcoming than the fear of more physical and emotional pain in your own home, and worse still, risk of harm to your baby.

Reach out, get the help you DESERVE. One step at a time. You can do this xx

Please get help. For your baby's sake if not yours. You will never regret it.

If you can't bring yourself to call police op please do call women's aid . They will help honestly lovely .

When you are alone call them x