Back story. Been married 3 years. I have a very low sex drive. Have had a few marital problems which has probably contributed to lack of said sex drive. Probably have sex every 3 to 4 months. DH has been completely understanding, not pushy, still very loving etc.
We've been getting along much better recently and I was hormonal/horny so I initiated sex last night, early this afternoon and just now. First 2 times. Wow. Just like the beginning hence why I initiated the 3rd time.
I don't know what happened this time around but I hated it. I just laid there for 15 mins plus while he did what he did. At first I was enjoying it and reacting well and then I'm unsure if my mind just switched off and I started to hate it. Cried silent tears until I just couldn't take it anymore and told him to get off me. He has no idea what's happened, very upset etc. He said he didn't notice me not give ANY reaction at all as he was in the moment etc.
Right now I don't know what I'm thinking. I've asked him to sleep in the other room tonight. I know I may be completely over reacting and don't mind if anyone tells me so but in those 15-20 mins I felt so cheap and used and physically felt sick and I genuinely can't even explain why..
Am I just tired? Could I have stopped feeling sexual in an instant? Or should DH have been more aware of my reactions (or lack of) and stopped? I don't know what to think and can't even understand why I'm so confused.