Sex is consuming me

[MumCatx2]

I'm 35, and my attitude to sex is changing. I came off hormonal contraception and my sex drive is now much higher. I also want to really pursue things that i've only dabbled with before. I don't want to end up old and unattractive regretting things I never did. I don't get emotionally involved with sex so I can have sex outside of my relationship (with men or women) and be fine. The killer is, my partner of 7 years doesn't want to play. He has tried for me, but he doesn't have the same drive. We have amazing sex at home and he wants to keep it at that. Doing it on the sly is incredibly hard because he works from home, and he will leave if he finds out.
I feel so confused and so torn. The rational side of me says that I need to shut this side of me down. But a big part of me wants to indulge it.
I'm not scared of being a single mum, but don't want to do that to my kids. I'm so in love and happy, but i don't know if that will be enough for me forever.

Kink does not automatically equate to multiple partners. I'm a terribly bratty little sub but only in a monogamous relationship. I can't even begin to think about sharing that experience with someone who is also sleeping with other people, or wanting the emotional connection that comes with trusting someone so much with more than one person.

OP, it sounds like you just aren't cut out for monogamy at this point in time. You need to be honest with your partner, kink is so much about respect and if what you're after is just a quick shag with serial one night stands then it's not about kink, it's about cheating. Please be decent about this and either end your relationship or stop cheating.

My sentiments exactly @ShatnersWig