Why does everyone hate me :(

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No matter what I do people just don’t like me and I’m sick of being in tears every god damn day over it. So called friends never reply even if it’s a simple text, but I just get ignored, recently once one friend has done this twice, arranged to meet up, comes to hours before and just ignores me.
I’ve been upset to my so called partner about it and he’s not arsed at all. He’s got his friends and I’m not allowed out with them as they all hate me, they even say ‘do not bring ... out’ but they can take all their girlfriends and whoever 😭
I’m sick of being left out, my partner says it’s all my fault I don’t have friends and I’m selfish and I’m a cunt and a horrible nasty piece of work and I don’t see how p, I don’t talk to anyone, haven’t in over a year as no one wants to talk to me, he claims he’s not telling them anything and they hate me because of how I treat him. I don’t get it nearly 5 years together and he can do what he wants, I bring things up that bother me and he’s not interested and if he’s in the wrong, flips it back upon me so I’m the reason I’m feeling like this or this has happened.
I can’t do it anymore, I’m crying my eyes out all the time and he’s not helping or supporting me. He screams at me my parents don’t give a shit about me and where are they and no one gives a shit about me, he did but doesn’t now. He’s told me to kill myself more times than I’d want to say, I’ve gone as far as I’ve secretly cut where no one can see, I’ve actually attempted to slice my throat. He tells me to jump off something, and he thinks our son will have a better life with him. Honestly I feel like I want to end it all and I’ve got no way out. I’m trapped in this house alone 24/7 and he doesn’t even live here so he has his breaks from our son and goes off with his friends and he’s social, I don’t get that, I have no one to be social with and I have our son 24/7 no one ever has him or anything either, which I don’t mind I mean he’s my baby boy, but I just wish I wasn’t so alone and isolated and I wish someone actually cared about my existence and appreiciated me. I tried everything to make it good over Christmas as a family and I had to hold it together as I didn’t even get s mummy card never mind anything else, every Christmas and birthday is the same, I try and go all out and do what I can and I get nothing in return. I don’t even get photos with him or a family like normal couples.
I just don’t know what to do anymore and where to turn, I’m sick of everything always being my fault and I feel like this because it’s my fault and I don’t have anyone in my life cause it’s my fault

I didn’t want to read and run.

You sound terribly sad, I wish I could give you hug.

It sounds like your ‘D’P has done a good number on you and driven your self esteem through the floor.

How were you before you met your DP? Did you have other relationships, did you feel better about yourself?

First of all, there is nothing wrong with you, your surrounded by C. I am so so sorry you are feeling this way. Your partner (if you can call him that) behaviour is completely unacceptable. He is mentally abusing you. Please please go and see your gp and explain all of this to them. You need to change your locks and get rid of him. (I know this sounds alot to you and I can imagine the pressure and anxiety this can bring) you have to for your own sanity. There are people who are out there that would never treat you this way. There is a better life out there for you I promise.
If your child was being treat this way what advise would you give? Make small steps to get all these horrible people out of your life. If you live anywhere near Leeds, west Yorkshire in England let me know. I will be your friend and I promise I will not hate you and reply to your every message. ❤ I just want to give you a big hug xxx

Haven't much to add but sometimes it IS the people around you who are the main problem in your life. It is better to have no friends than negative friends. First, make friends with yourself before you try making friends with others - it took me a long time to sort my friends radar!

OK well the main thing I'm getting from your post is that your partner is abusive and has isolated you. I think you should contact women's aid for some advice

Your boyfriend has knocked your self esteem so much you don’t expect any better.

Can you get access to some counselling via your GP?

Didn't want to ignore this....

He is a cunt!!

I agree with nomorearsingmermaids - your partner is emotionally abusing you. Lots of love and strength to you, please begin to think about ending your relationship with him.

Sending you the biggest virtual hug ❤️ please don't feel sad or alone, he doesn't deserve you x

I care about your existence OP and I don’t even know you

Your DP sounds absolutely vile. When someone tells you over and over again that you’re worthless, you start to believe it. But you’re not worthless. You’re a human being, you’re a mum, you’re unique, you matter.

You deserve so much more than he is giving you.

You have a DS and he loves and needs You. Like PP says, contact Women’s Aid as a starting point. There are people that can help you. You can build a life with your son and you can start to enjoy life, you just need a bit of help.

Be strong

Oh, OP.

It's NOT you. I promise.

This man is scum. Please lock your door and never let him into your home again! Is this how you want your little boy to treat people? Because that's what will happen if he witnesses this very day.

Be strong. Get rid of him. It is THE best thing you can do for yourself and your baby. Then you can focus on getting your independence and social life back - toddler groups, etc.

It's almost a new year. Make it one to remember for the right reasons.

You matter. I promise you that too

There is nothing wrong with you, it's your so called partner who is at fault. Please please leave him, contact womens aid for help and advice.
Think of yourself and your child. You can have a better life. It will be difficult but you both are worth it.
Please phone womens aid tonight. Take care

Sending you cuddles . Such a shame your partner could let those horrible words out of his mouth. Please think about your child and stay alive and strong for him, you've got so much to live for. X

God, this makes me so sad. What a bastard your partner sounds.

If you could get up the strength to leave, it's likely that you will feel better in the long run.

Hugs to you. I wish you the very best. Stay alive for your little boy and please think about leaving that bastard of a 'partner'.

Keep going, and clear out these so called friends, and that partner of yours. You will feel a lot better

You need a plan.
Get out.
Get away
Research places that really resonate with you and make a plan to up sticks with you and your boy.
You'll find, (after a few months of feeling a bit isolated and lonely) its the best thing you ever did.
Change your life.
Change the people in it.
You are an intelligent, caring, wonderful person OP - it comes over in what you have written - and you deserve so much more.
Take care and stay strong.

Bless you, you sound so unhappy. Your self esteem has been completely destroyed by this man. My advice would be to get rid of him. He's not doing you any good at all. And forget about these so called friends of yours too. I'd suggest making a GP appointment ASAP and tell them how you're feeling. They should be able to get you counselling which will help you. Then it's time to put yourself first and think about you and what you can do to make yourself feel better.

You sound like a fantastic Mum, with a lovely little boy who you love very much. You deserve so much better than this x

OP, you must get out of this abusive so-called relationship for the sake of your own happiness and self-esteem. It sounds like you've come to believe all the shit he's pouring into your ears, and he's doing it to control you. Please start making a plan to leave him for your own sake and your boy's, and keep yourself alive and safe, your little one needs you and this piece of shit who calls himself your partner isn't worth you doing anything terrible over. Many hugs.

It certainly is not you. It's the abusive twat "partner".
There is plenty of help out there. Women's Aid, GP, Freedom Programme

Omg this man is pure poison. You need to put on some big girl pants and look after number one and your child only right now. And getting away from this man should be an absolute priority. You need a nice fresh start without all these awful human beings dragging you down and ruining your life

LTB
Get out get out get out

No matter how hard it is, leave. He is the reason for your poor self esteem, he has made sure you are isolated.
Leave.

Start a new hobby, meet likeminded people, be kind to yourself, be happier.

Hugs x

Are you there, OP?

He doesn't live with you. Hold onto that. You're in a good position due to that fact.

Keep talking to us. There is so much help available to you. You just need to believe it and know that you are worth it.

I care about what happens to you. Message me your location. If we are in the same county then I’ll be your friend and come take you for a coffee. You have a partner problem. He sounds horrible and degrading. You deserve better x

The man you are with is an absolute abusive arse, utterly someone sucking the life from you.

Please contact Women's Aid
0808 2000 247

www.womensaid.org.uk/

You need to make plans to get away from this man and start your life away from someone who taunts you and is so very cruel to you.

You 100% deserve better.

You need to get out but be careful how you break up, get help, your boyfriend sounds vile. There is nothing wrong with you except you are linked to this arse hole.

Are you living in the U.K?

Yes where do you live? If you are near me il be your friend ! You don't need these people in your life. That little boy of yours will completely adore every bone in your body you are the best person in his life. We are all here for you OP ❤️