Okay; not cheat.
I'm new to the office, been there a few months. Very good job, great pay. Nice people to work around.
But I was speaking to a load of work colleagues after our Christmas dinner and I really enjoyed the attention. There's one in particular I got butterflies talking to. Then I remembered you are MARRIED ffs!
What is wrong with me? I left the party with a female colleague who was getting back for the dog. I removed myself from the situation because I knew I was enjoying myself far too much 
A bit of background. I'm 21 (almost 22). I got married at 19, I have a lovely 2 year old little boy. I am happy enough in my marriage but for some reason, I just wanted to live and let my hair down tonight. I wanted to see where the night took me. I didn't think of my husband at all, I only remembered I just couldnt proceed with the party like I wanted to in my head.
Common sense got me out of there. But I'm feeling a bit low in a way. I feel like I've completely skipped the drinks and nights out stage in life, flirting and snogging with a handsome bloke.
Am I just a bit unhinged tonight? I never felt this way before. I have never ever felt the need to look elsewhere until tonight. I just loved how fun it all was :( I know I'm horrible, I just thought I could get someone to make sense of how I'm feeling.
Whilst I was in conversation with the group and having such a great time and feeling so chatty, I just wanted all the married life and baby stuff to disappear. Which makes me feel horrendous now, looking at my precious boy sleeping tucked in his room tonight.
What's happening?