Feel unloved and stupid and so hurt

[asdover]

I have ASD. And PND

Things are difficult. I had a bad day I needed dh to understand. Instead he got angry as he is tired and had a hard day
I didn’t understand why he was being how he was and asked him to have some patience and he shouted he has enough patience every single day with me. Meaning that my ASD is too much to deal with

I feel like shit. I feel like my marriage Is over
I feel like a NT person should have a bit more compassion tbh I try my best and today I was overwhelmed
Now he wants to make up on his terms and actually I don’t want him near me

Sorry for typos!

I agree with previous posters about the tiny child period being really really challenging and argument /upset causing. Everyone has bad days and bad times. Look to the overall picture of the two of you. He sounds overall helpful and loving? You're adjusting to a massive change, breastfeeding, so bearing the brunt of it. I loved my kids as babies a million percent but I think it was a pretty horrendous period for me due to cluelessness, sleep deprivation, hard work and loneliness, 💐

And (IMO obviously) I give up breastfeeding- you've done your bit.

Yes I do want to and I’d cut back but he’s had about 5 colds in the last few weeks so then it all went backwards which has been really really hard

Come to think of it asdover the reason myself and others here have maybe been a bit critical is because of the way you communicate, which would be due to your ASD. When women here talk about even terrible shits of husbands they still usually add in niceties about how guilty they may feel or how sympathetic they are with him etc. You haven't included such NT niceties in your posts, and so inadvertently are communicating that you don't like you husband at all. I'm sure you do actually like your husband, very much.