He's gone

[thelmalouisewaitforme]

Posting here as some of you might remember my previous thread on Relationships about my ex P (deleted as became too identifying).

I am finding it hard to type this and find the words.

He killed himself a couple of days ago.

I had tried to warn people he was a danger to himself but no one would listen.

I don't know how to feel, but I am heartbroken for him and his family. I have no idea what to do with myself over the next few days and weeks.

I'm so sorry
I would personally go to the funeral. It may help with some closure of the situation.
Don't worry about what people are thinking.
He made the decision to do this and it was in no way your fault.
Sending you a big hug xxxx

Just getting ready for work, feels weird, mundane life carrying on amid so much turmoil. I don't know how useful I will be today but I'll give it a go. Just don't know what to say to people. Whether to tell them or not.

We had a friend kill himself last year, in a very dramatic way. We still struggle with the thoughts of could we have done more? We lived next door but moved and even now DH asks if it would have happened if we hadn't have moved!
It's the fact you just don't know and can't ask.
Our friend was very much loved and had tried to kill himself previously.
I am so sorry for your lost. Do have the counselling!

I would tell people.... as in 'I've had a very sad couple of weeks and lost someone close to me'