Long story short - I am a single parent and tonight was the final straw. I need some advice if anyone can offer some, I would appreciate it.
I almost left last year (2nd year) to work in a nursery but financially can't afford it. I have not enjoyed placements and struggled juggling everything. I get no support from my ex so pay the mortgage alone and juggle the childcare myself. Blamed all of the above so carried on. I can't begin to explain the hurdles I have overcome to reach this point (6 months to go). I can't give up now! However I don't want to be a mental health nurse. The more I am involved in, the more depressed I am. I have questioned this, spoke to other students who haven't like placements or tge uni experience but they want to continue. I really do not.
My one dd is struggling at school, is over weight (Im really trying to help her) and tonight my youngest told me she hears voices that aren't very nice (maybe triggered from some kind of trauma? I can't think of anything that has happened). For the last 2 weeks all I have done is sit working on my dissertation. I feel guilty. What if I have not been there emotionally for them? This degree has taken every bit of me. I'm not happy. It appears my children aren't either. The whole point of doing it was to gain a career to enable me to be financially stable for my dd's. I feel lost and helpless. I don't even want to be a nurse anymore. I just don't know which way to go.