My dh and I have been fighting a lot. I have had a lot of problems with depression and anxiety in the past which have made me very messy and unorganised. I understand why he gets annoyed sometimes, but I'm trying so hard to change myself, and sometimes I slip. I recently found out I was pregnant with baby number 2, and we are on an average low wage between us. If I leave work, and stay at home, we would be ok because we wouldn't have to pay for childcare, but dh doesn't want us to struggle and wants to go on holiday and have days out with our ds (4). Ds has asked for a baby for Christmas because he doesn't want to be on his own anymore. And it breaks my heart. But dh wants me to have an abortion until we earn more money. I try to do the right thing but this is breaking my heart so I am very snappy sometimes with him. I want him to understand that I'm upset so sometimes I just go and cry because I've got a human growing inside me that I want and love, but he doesn't want them. Am I fighting a losing battle? Should I just give up on the baby and him? Should I keep fighting for him? I just don't know what to do. :'( x