I started to get a sore throat which has got progressively worse. I don't have a voice, swallowing even my own saliva is excruciatingly painful, I feel hot and achy all over.
What's made me feel so so sad his reaction. Yesterday when my child wanted to go to the beach he said it was too late because mummy had stayed in bed. In fact he just drove off to the shops and left me with her even though I was not fit to look after her. He also muttered 'bloody selfish' about me on the landing loud enough for me to hear. Today when they came back from a lovely day out at the seaside he angrily said 'I'm going to take Monday off for exhaustion'. He asks me to get her ready for bed or make her eat her tea but I can't talk. He hasn't offered me a drink or asked how I am. When he is sick I take child out of the house so he can't rest. He doesn't really do being sick though and tries to ignore it as he hates staying home.
I'm so so sad. I'm glad I can't speak, but at the same time I'm sick of him gaslighting me. I used to be so assertive and strong but now everything is lost.