We have been together for 3.5 years. He's 42 and I'm 10 years younger. No kids or mortgage together.
October last year I found out he has been using escorts. (Had to access his email to check Sainsbury's home delivery and found a dodgy email from one of working girls.) I managed to gather a fair amount of information however, no 100proc evidence. His text to them asking where they based or what service they offer etc. Obviously was devastated and was blaming myself, even tried to wear sexy lingerie and showed more initiative in bed, sent him dirty pictures. I didn't confront him for about 1.5 months because had some serious deadlines and he was depressed so didn't want to spin situation out of control.
Where I mentioned it to him (yes, I onlyentioned not wanting to hurt his feelings) he denied it.. left to travel with work and got me flowers on return.
I didn't have strength to bring up the topic again. I still don't. He can get emotionally abusive very quickly. I don't know how to force myself to bring it up. I believe he feels he's in a situation where he can cheat on me be abusive and get away with it. I don't see the future in this relationship if we don't talk about the cheating and abuse problem. I can't come to terms with leaving him either even I know I should.
It's hard. Has anyone been in a situation like this and how shall I force myself to change things. It's not good just let things like that happen without any consequences.