Sorry place to be but warm hugs and people who know what you are going through :(
Shall I start,
Married, 18 years found out on Christmas day that my husband had been having an affair for 14 months, he had slept with her in my bed and my living room floor, She never left her head teacher husband and big house......... so four days later after telling me he was unsure if he loved me or wanted to save our marriage, he decided, he wanted to save the marriage. Since then life has been peachy.....only felt like ending it a hand full of times, cry most days and feel completely and utterly broken. The things I have found out since have destroyed me, the laughing with his best mate about what he was doing behind my back,( found those delightful messages), the lie upon lie I have been told have brought me to breaking point. We even tried Relate little did I know he was still keeping stuff from me and would happily still lie to me at the drop of a hat. I was a good wife I know now, I gave him everything I could and it still wasn't enough. Bad things happen to good people, His/her shitty choices have caused this pain, the person who should have had my back, was stabbing me in it and laughing while he did it. I loved him, and he says he loves me, but how can anyone who treats someone like that?