So I've been single 12 years!!!! Father of don left me for another woman and I've been left alone with no support to bring up my son, who is now nearly 16 and if I say so myself I think I've done a bloody good job bringing him up (pat on the back for all of us going it alone lol!!).
I've had a few disastrous liaisons since, and I mean disastrous haha! Total idiots. Nothing serious but they've further reinforced my belief I'm better on my own!
One drunken night after a few sherbets I decided to join up to POF. It's free don't judge me 
!! I'm happy on my own believe me but sometimes I get a bit lonely (not often mind!!). So to cut a long story short, got chatting to a guy who seems nice, lives in the same town etc. Spoke to a few girlfriends who know of him and they've reiterated what a lovely man he is. My fear is, despite my outward confidence, and the fact I do a very challenging job (emergency services) and put me in uniform I can take anyone on (😂😞) I feel completely out of my depth when it comes to meeting someone. I'm overweight, suppose I'm quite pretty if I spend a bit of time on myself but certainly no oil painting! Don't really dress well, if I'm not in uniform I love either my PJs or trackies!!!
This man has suggested we meet up! Now I met a guy a few year back on Facebook, used to go to school with him. We met up and omg it was awful! I wasn't attracted to him in the slightest! I actually felt a bit sick when he tried to kiss me at the end of the night. So if this POF guy doesn't turn on his heels and run at the sight of me, what if I don't like him? I KNOW the answer is just to casually meet but I really feel I don't really feel I have the confidence to be judged! Plus because I've been on my own so long I've kinda got myself into a (comfortable!!) rut!!!
This is lighthearted but please, any advice gladly received!!!!!!