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About a year ago I fell out with a very good friend. We were meant to be going to a concert with her two sisters but I was pregnant with SPD and couldn't stand for long periods so tried to swap standing tickets to seats. The venue couldn't swap all 4 of us and my friend wasn't prepared to go 2+2 (so her two sisters keep standing and me and friend have seats - not ideal but meant we could all still go). Because she wouldn't do this it meant I either had to sit on my own or not go at all. Maybe I was unreasonable but I was hurt about it as the concert was my suggestion in the first place and it seemed she would rather I didn't go than leave her two sisters.
I told her how I felt and it could have been resolvable but she pretty much told me I was being silly and to get over it, and that was probably what caused the biggest issue - that she didn't take me seriously. We've not spoken since.
There had been other little things prior to this that I hadn't spoken to her about but I'd felt a bit let down with. I chose not to discuss them at the time for the sake of the friendship but then when the above happened, for me it felt like the final straw (but she didn't know this).
However over this last year I've still thought about her and miss her, but then I'm not sure if I'm just forgetting what it felt like at the time. I think having DS has made me realise what's important in life though, which is why I'm considering reaching out to her.
I've also found out today, by chance, she has since been pregnant and had a baby. We used to always talk about being on maternity leave together. So it makes me kind of sad that we've missed out on this, as I'm still on mat leave.
Anyway I don't know what I should do. Part of me wants to reach out to her, maybe with a written letter, but I'm scared of rejection and also being hurt again in the future.
The other part of me feels like I just need to move on but I'm not sure if I really have any closure on this.
Any thoughts?