Cheated

[MumToBe2015R]

I don't know how I could have done this to him...! I feel absolutely horrible & disgusted with myself... it's to the point where I can't even look him in the eye. So basically we've been married 10years lately he shows me no attention (said it to him a few times)
My ex of 12years ago showed me some attention & I up & went to meet him. Stupid of me I no! He clearly said he wanted to share 1 last kiss before he got married in a few months. I told him NO we'll just meet for a coffee & a chat. Abit stupid of me considering I knew what his intentions were. So anyway I went to meet him, we ended up kissing. Not just a kiss, it went on for ages. I don't know what to do now...
me & oh have a 4year too. Do I keep quiet?

You’re still thinking about him because maybe it made you reasses your life.
If nothing has changed with your dh then you’ve not really dealt with anything.
That really needs to be a priority.
Also do some therapy on your own, work out your feelings.
This is how (some) affairs start, when you’re unhappy at home and you can’t seem to do anything to change it. Like Dadaist said, it’s that little bit that helps you get not have to deal with your real life, but that isn’t how it ends, it’s addictive and destructive and you’ll lose everything.