Hi just a bit of a rant I have been with my partner for 9 months everything always good but I sometimes feel like he wants more from me, if I don't text him back straight away he tells me I make him feel second best, when I go to work he always throws in digs about going to have fun and not bothering with him, and that the men in work just want to fk me and I love the attention. I am anxious and not confident and when we went out to a party one night I wore a slightly low top which showed abit of cleverage and when we got to the party I spent the first hour worrying about how I looked, I didn't no anyone so felt out my comfort zone and used my hair to hide my clevrage, the night went on I drank some wine and felt slightly merry which made me forget all my worries that I didn't need to feel as my boobs where not out the top was just lower than I'm used to, myboyfriend decided to tell me that a lad (behind me) was looking over at me and kept saying I was ok now and I wasn't hiding myself with my hair because I loved the attention which was a shock as I hadn't noticed anyone looking at me, I told him to stop being silly and enjoy our night together so went to carry on picking about how he feels like a d**k now cuz of that lad looking at his girl, we went to town and it carried on so i said we was going home, he says he's sorry and feels insecure and can't believe what he has and that's why he feels like this, we had a talk about babies recently we have 5 between us and none together but he says he wants one with me I have agreed in a year maybe but it's too soon and I like having some time for us, I then get called selfish and what about what he wants as he's 36 now and doesn't want to wait another year or so, he then tells me I only want my 2 kids and that's all that matters to me and constantly puts me down, even tho I tell him daily I Iove him, I show him affection, we have regular and great sex which he moans about saying we should have it more, and I try my hardest to make him feel good but it's like he won't except it that I want him and no one else but he is a very negative and depressing person for eg I will say I'm just going to text my sister and he will say hmmmm u won't just text me will you, he nags and picks and then is normal for a while then he is a pleasure to be around, there is no telling him because he will say you have started this and won't leave it and when I then feel upset and annoyed with him I don't want to be by him then and he will use that against me and say see u don't want me u don't want me to touch u I should be aloud to go near my girlfriend.... arggggg are all men this bloody deluded