So I'm posting on here as I really need some advise..
Tonight me and my fiancé had an argument which had ended pretty badly.
A bit of history on my fiancé, he is notoriously unreliable, extremely forgetful and to be honest quite lazy. 99% of the time we get on so we'll but occasionally we will have a pretty bad row. We also have a baby that is only a few weeks old.
This evening he came home from the pub tipsy, always a good start. Something that I needed to sort quickly happened and I needed him watch our baby just while I went out because I couldn't take him with me, so I get him out of bed asking him for help, on the way down he starts getting moody about it, I'll admit I was already frustrated and I asked him if he could for once just be reliable and help me when I need it. So he storms off back upstairs and gets back into bed. I follow and by now I'm getting mad and he keeps telling me to f off and I ask him if he's happy for our baby to be alone downstairs while I go out and he's saying yea whatever blah blah blah and I say "you really don't give a shit about him do you" his response? No. This makes me see red and I will admit I slapped his arm, not particularly hard but I just lost it and I'm not proud. So fast forward to a while later and it's still going on. He's always known how to wind me up and he goads me to loosing my temper every time we fight. Things we being said back and forth and again I admit I said some things I regret and wish I could take back (at this point I'm still angry about what he said earlier) he was denying that he said we didn't care which was only making me madder as I can't understand why he'd lie about it when we both know what he said. After this I walked away and let myself calm down because I know when I get pushed too far I can just loose it, so I calm myself and go back to him to ask why he said why he said and he still is lying about it, while on the bed I'm leaning on him with my hand in his stomach. He keeps telling me to get off, F off, etc... I say I won't until he admits what he said (at this point I'm now very calm, no raised voiced or anything!) I keep saying I just want him to accept and admit what he said and I apologised for everything I said and admitted I was out of line. All he keeps saying is get off me and maybe I should off but I thought that if I just stayed eventually he'd give up and admit it. That wasn't the case.. after a little bit longer he grabs me and pins me onto the bed, knee in my side, one hand holding my arms and the other on my shoulder. I had to pinch him to get him off and say I'm not going until I hear the truth. Again he pins me to the bed but this time he has one hand on the side of my face with a lot of force. After that one I left the room and just cried.. I know we were both angry but I don't know how I feel about him pinning me down like that when I wasn't being angry or aggressive. I feel like I may have deserved it because I had also been out of order but I'd apologised.. I feel a bit in shock about it all really.. no argument has ever escalated to that point.
My question is should I just leave it alone and let it go? Sorry for the lost essay... any help would be appreciated