Partner has kicked me

[BringMeSunshinePlease]

DP and I have a fairly volatile relationship. I love him and can't stay angry for long but we do row a lot.

I'm sorry this post may be a bit vague or bitty, not intentional but my head is all over the place at the moment.

He has two children and I don't find the step relationship very easy. I have mild mental health issues and I'm trying to work through without drugs.

He lost his temper during a row about the eldest child. He kicked me as I was walking away, full pelt on my hip. He's a big, strong man and it really hurt. He then went crazy, yelling and ranting.

I'm so confused and hurt. I don't have a clue what to do. I cannot move out of our home as my finances are tied up here and he can't move out either.

He didn't even go through the faux-remorse that some abusers do. He went straight to blaming you and setting you up to be hurt again.

He is extremely dangerous and if you have to stay and plan (I would advise you to leave immediately) cover your tracks very well.

He's not in the least bit bothered

So he's not horrified that the two of you are so incompatible that he's felt this terrible rage and has attacked you? He should be.

Instead, he's treating it as an okay thing to do and will very likely do it again, or something worse.
Don't stay around waiting for it to happen. Finances can be sorted afterwards.

He's said he's never felt angry like he does with me

This could come from The Abuser's Script. Me ex did this. He's blaming you because then he does not have to admit to himself that his behaviour is wrong. And that it is HIS fault.

It sounds as if you have decided to leave, which I am relieved about. Just wanted to ask why you feel you cannot talk to anyone in RL about it?

And yes, if you are planning on staying there while plotting your escape, be extremely careful and do not let him get wind of anything. Also do not try and be reasonable and tell him when you go - just do a flit when he's not there. He sounds dangerous.