Could be , I mean it's not easy for women either is it? Our bodies change too on top .we enter into this other world with someone who you think is there hand in hand, but it just feels like your the one holding it together , it's a lonely place. My little girl has c palsy she was diagnosed around one , I left my job to be there for her and all her app, to be there helping her at home with what I was told to do by doctors, my mum has always been the one to come with me to app , never him .id give him the feed back and he would just turn on me that they are stupid, I didn't ask enough etc, he just didn't want to face it , that's the truth , it was easier to step back and block it out.im tearing up writting this , and don't know why I'm getting Into it, but I feel I carry that much pain and heartache with me and I just hold it in acting fine, but I'm not, I'm heart Broken, I feel like someone has kicked the hell out of me, I'm angry im sad I'm guilty, I went through so much alone, in the early stages of being preg and after having her I found out he was on coke , going forward to know, my daughter is 4 he don't do drugs got another job which he been doing 2 or 3 years now, but it's working away only comes back weekends, iv spoken to him in past about how I feel , and the pain I still carry but he will never know, how could he he didn't go through it. I lived with mom n dad till after she was one due to his behaviour, and because that was to much on them I got my own place, iv had to sort everything, be the rock, the love we had changed when he put me through all the lies and upset while I was preg, it was never full the same after. Almost like it was tarnished. Iv battled on hoping it would come good, but still 5 yrs being together I'm alone, he is away communication int great when he away , and I still feel alone and empty