I'm really anxious, and I've had cbt for many years but basically struggle to contain it. I just feel I need to control stuff around me and hate it when things change. He has very demanding attitudes also.
I felt really bad this week with anxiety and DP was really kind which was lovely. Today we are supposed to be travelling overnight to my sisters engagement party which is a big thing in my family and culture.
This morning he was annoyed when DD 13, spilt cereal all over the floor as she didn't clear it up properly and he thought I didn't support him in this - I think there might have been a grain of truth in what he said as I thought the cleaner would clean the corners. He said he wouldn't be picking DD up from her sports club because of my attitude. As Im Working from home this meant that I couldrush out and colllect her but this meant that I wouldn't be able to wash my dishes In the sink. This i said was ok as the cleaner was coming on Sunday.
He said I must 'comply' with him and that I needed to wash the dishes before leaving. I explained that as I wasnow collecting DD could he help with one or another. He said no and that he would make sure he made a lot of noise when I had my next work call. My boss called me and DH was shouting over me and laughing at me. I tried to exit the call and call back from the bathroom but he kept knocking the door really loudly. I needed to stand outside to make the call in the end. I have quite a big job in the City and my manager was calling from New York!
He's said he is no longer coming this weekend, has stormed out and texted my sister to tell her. My dad is terminally ill and this was supposed to be a family get together.
I feel so stressed and anxious but I know that I am very hard to live with due to the anxiety and controlling behaviour that I can't shake off. I don't know what to do 😳
I'm prepared to get a kicking from you all 😳