Please be gentle with me.
I have anxiety and depression have done for around 10 years been with partner for 8 of those; four young children too.
Over the years my partner has increasingly made my mental health worse and wore me down.
He is lazy and I do everything for him and the children. He belittles me and makes me feel inferior. I put up with it before as was convinced I had to stay for the children and I didn't deserve any better and I really was crazy like he said, but now I've realised just how unhappy I am and how I'm not in love with him.
I want to separate, we aren't married. But two weeks ago we found out his mum has cancer, she's been treated but he's quite close to his mum and I feel like I can't leave because not only will me leaving devastate him so will the fact his mum has cancer on top of it, timing couldn't be worse but I'm finding it so hard to put a brave face on it I know I'm a horrible person and it's making my anxiety so much worse.
What do I do?!