Bit of a backstory. Im 22, live with my parents. Mams got depression and has always had a short fuse. Dad no mh but also temper. Both have hit me in past. Ive put up with it. I think my low self esteem is a result of this.
Tonight my room was a pigsty after some warnings. Mam hit me over and over, slapping my face as dad stood there. They both hate me. Want me out. Mam vmade me give her a friends number - gave her a false one - and shes said if the girl can take me - likr im a cat. Im so angry but mainly upset. Im so down. Ive had enough. Im a good person, why should i listen to this? I could get round mam i think but i cant live my life like this. Ive nowhere to go. Best friend in uni, other friend unwell, i have family but they local and we not spoke in a while do would feel guilty. I could go to a hotel but they cost money and what about long term . If i lrft mam might change her mind or might not. But if i stay til end of thr week thry might chuck me out anyway. Ive begged and pleaded and shes still been horrible but softening. I want to go to police but vant bring myself to - it was a slap and itd ruin her life and thete really would be no going back. Shed lose her job as a carer. I have marks. I dont know whether i should stay, plead and try and put up and hopefully be allowed to stay or make the biggest, most life changing decision of my life. I just want to sob and sob. I feel useless and awful and a waste of spsce and im so scared of making the wrong decision. I know no one can say wgat to do but i need a friendly ear. Im leaning towards trying to stay but i think she is determined, and besides what happens next time?