There I've said it....

[pictureperfect1]

I want out of my 7 year marriage.
I'm scared of him.
I'm walking on egg shells constantly
I don't think I love him
He has double standards
I miss affection
I want to be loved
Why does he shout at me
Why do I make him angry
Why can I never do anything right
Am I going mad?
Is it me!
I'm embarrassed by him
He is horrid to he around
I wished I'd never met him
He is mean

What is stopping you? What are you scared is going to happen?

You can do this. The sooner you do it the sooner you can start living the rest of your life happily.

You can do this. You hold all the cards and are in a very strong position - speak with a solicitor as soon as you can, you sound like someone who finds it easier to deal with things when you're armed with all the facts.

@pictureperfect1 you say you are afraid of your husband and have alluded to some very abusive behaviour from him. If there is any remote possibility that he may become angry and possibly violent when you try to extricate yourself from this marriage then please seek advice and support from relevant organisations that specialise in domestic abuse before you act.
You sound confused and sometimes people who are victims of abuse don't recognise that the behaviour they have endured is abusive or that they are victims. At least make sure a third person knows when you will be telling him, so that they can call and check you are safe and okay afterwards. Good luck.

It doesn't really matter if it is you that is the problem though, does it? Either way, you are not happy in this relationship and you don't need his permission to end it.