Me and my partner (can't say ex yet) had been together 12 years. Over the last few months I suppose he has become distant and I thought he was suffering with depression. This last year has been tough I've been signed off work with anxiety. We've always had a turbulent relationship but when it's good it's great when it's bad it's horrendous. There has been one occasion of DV and lots of EA. I adore this man though for some reason.
A few weeks ago he decided he needed space and went away for the weekend. He came back and seemingly I thought things were better, but obviously not because after instigating sex a few times and me feeling afterwards like it felt different. Hes decided to tell me he doesn't love me like he should and as much as I love him and he's unhappy with me.
I've begged, pleaded, cried everything to him and nothing. I've asked him to leave nearly every day and he hasn't. His reason is he'd rather leave when he's got time off work in a couple of weeks then it will be less awkward for him!!!!! Yesterday I wrote him a letter and left it for him to read while I was out. When I came home he carried on as normal. As did I making dinner trying to keep things normal for our child who has no idea what is happening yet. He then went to sleep early and just hasn't acknowledged anything that I have said in the letter to him. He's quite happy for me to carry on making dinner and washing his clothes but won't acknowledge anything I say. A few days ago he was saying he might be making the biggest mistake of his life, he finds me attractive, is struggling not to just get in our bed with me etc, etc.
I'm so heartbroken and don't know how I will go on without him in my life it kills me to think of him being with someone else. I suspect there could be some one else there are a lot of things that don't add up with him and I've asked and asked him that question too. Not only does he avoid answering it he hasn't denied it either. 😔