Partner not interested in my body

[xxdriftwoodxx]

Hi
I've been with my partner for 4 years after I divorced my husband of 18 years.
Sex with my partner was sparse at the beginning and quickly stopped, after 2 years I found out he'd been meeting men for oral sex performed on him, I gained access to the sites he used and viewed his comments on his profile.
We broke up, but got back together and tried to start again. Still no sex or interest, no arousal at the site of my body, nothing,
We tried counselling about our issues and it came out my partner had issues with women due to bad relationships , he's also been married 3 times then divorced after having affairs with other women,
Four years on , two Counselor's later, sex isn't happening, there's no interest by my partner, I am slowly dying inside as I miss being close sexually to someone special in my life .
If I walk away, am I being selfish or unreasonable to leave because we're not having a physical relationship?
This four years had broken my confidence in myself , I'm confused as what to do or think.
My partner doesn't seem affected by this at all and seems happy and content in his life, going about his hobbies and pub nights, playing golf and watching football, his life looks complete .
Am I expecting too much and being self centred?

Guess keep with the facts as they are and leave without feeling guilty and move our x

Two words will suffice

He knows what he has been doing to you. You have been trying in vain to make him stop for years. He won't stop.

Don't draw it out. What you say has no bearing here...what you do is the key. Which is exactly how it has been your whole relationship...on both sides.

He's as gay as a gay musical called gay ffs. Why are you still around trying to convert him and providing him with a cover story? He obviously been covering up for years.

I hung around because I felt I was being unfair but I've watched as he carries on in life happily where as I am slowly worn down xx I believed I was being unfair but I realise I am being unfair with myself xx

Oh OP, get out, this will destroy you

This doesn't mean he is gay but his actions do mean that he can't be in a full, loving relationship

Driftwood your honest life can now begin. Simply stop covering and stop lying. Say "I'm not happy, it's over".

Then get on with practical changes. Expect high and lows for a long, long period of time. Six months on and overall I would expect you will prefer living an honest life, even if it's not a 'perfect' life.

Odd but I do feel I am living a lie, my partner made out I was being unreasonable and I should be happy with my lot,
To leave this behind won't be too hard now I have my head around it, I've slot to sort out but I'll post again when I've left my partner..... just thinking of the best way to do it x