I'm not sure how to start this or what is going on. My DP has been acting differently over the past month or so. I'll start at the beginning though.
I have always trusted him with out a shadow of a doubt. We are very open and I feel like i can talk to him about anything. We have always been the type of people that would be open if we found someone attractive ECT. We are human and both aware we will and can find other people attractive. I've never felt jealous if when we were together he said look at her or catch him looking at another female ect. I do the same things and considering he's with me why would I feel jealous. I've always felt very secure in our relationship.
Anyway in the middle of my pregnancy (I'm 35 weeks) so around 20 or so weeks, I started to feel really insecure which was weird for me as I havent really felt like this before so I told him, like I say we are open and honest with each other. I told him that it wasn't anything he's been doing dofferently in particular but when I see him glance and another girl or talk about girls from his work or see a girl looking at him (all of which doesnt happen too often but I've been picking up on it more) I feel a bit jealous and insecure but I am fully aware that this is more about how I'm feeling and my self esteem being pregnant. I feel huge and unattractive ECT. He of course was sweet said I've nothing to worry about and felt bad that I've been thinking like that.
Now I feel like he is talking about this one particular girl from his work more often and I know they are friendly but i can't help feel like he's doing it on purpose since I mentioned to him it's been getting to me. I'll ask him like what you up to today and he will say things about going to meet up with other girls ECT and laugh like it's a joke and maybe before I was pregnant I would laugh to and tell him to crack on but now I feel like since I've spoke to him about it he shouldn't be joking about it since I've made it clear its getting to me.
About a week or so ago we were in bed and I couldnt sleep (pregnancy) he mumbled another girls name in his sleep and cuddled up into me. I got really upset and we spoke in the morning he said he doesn't remember dreaming about any other girls and there's no one else ECT. So we spoke and moved passed it. Then 2 days later I found a long black hair in our bed I have light hair no way it was mine. He said he had no idea how it got there or who's it was. I was confused but it was one hair and could have came from anywhere so didn't want to dwell on it. Last night it was half 10 at night and all of a sudden he wanted to go out for a walk. We used to go out on late night walks all the time but I have been really unwell in this pregnancy and not long out of hospital and have been ordered to rest so there is no way I'd be going for a walk. It was random he wanted to go he didn't ask me to come obviously as he knew there no way I'd be able to. He went out at half 10 and came back in at around midnight. He said he went a walk around the local area. It was weird and something he wouldn't normally have done unless we were both going. I don't make a big deal out of it, i mentioned I thought it was strange before he went out but he said he just felt like a walk, so I left it. Then today I went to pick up his phone and he almost fell over himself trying to stop me. We argued about something and he stormed out for about 6 hours. The argument was nothing and we have had way worse but this time he walked out and didn't come back for hours and we haven't really spoken since he got in.
I'm not saying he is cheating I really don t want to believe that but maybe he is losing interest in our relationship? I don't know. I'm not sure if I'm over thinking and being paranoid or if something is going on.
I should mention I've asked if anything is going on and he says no. But somethig has changed, he's acting very different. Hot and cold sometimes he's very loving and affectionate and other times he's so distant it's like we live in different countries.
Is pregnancy making me crazy or am i justified in the way I feel?.