I found out today that the man I was seeing was apparently fully in love and in a relationship with his wife.
I had been seeing him for 3 years. He told me he was separated from his wife, and lived in the out building of the house, for the sake of the kids. she was too unstable for me to meet her, they hadnt had sex for 7 years, never kissed, she was looking forward to a fresh start once the kids had finished school; BLAH BLAH BLAH. he saw me every morning, talked from 9pm to 12pm ish every night, spent every lunch with me, weekends. he was always around. i didnt suspect anything untoward until recently.
I'm stupid and I fell for it and I am a fool. Recently i had gone through a phase of questioning his sincerity, and whenever i did, he'd have even more love-filled declarations to make.
as soon as his wife and i knew what was going on, he had 'fallen out of love with me,' and realised how ,much he loved his wife etc etc. he has been utterly callous to me. i don't know what is happening with them - she said she wanted a divorce - but whatever their situation, i dont want to clap eyes on him ever again. but i still feel deeply hurt that he hasn't contacted me, and i still miss him. why do i feel like that? my mind is all over the place because i keep re running things he told me and realising it was all lies.
how can someone do that? i just dont get it. i dont know how this will ever feel better.